A Thought Process

Start: Anaheim Ice Rink

Ice Rink to Lincoln and Euclid, Anaheim

There is no way to hide emotion around 30 people you love. Whether it is anger and disappointment or heartache and fear, these emotions escape my containers. And to contain these emotions, I feel it necessary to take a walk.

Elapsed Distance: 1.92 mi

Lincoln and Euclid to Talbert and Euclid, Anaheim to Garden Grove to Fountain Valley

Why is it so easy to get emotional around them? Why do everyone of my emotions seem to slip out when I'm with them? I love every single one of them. Jesus, a neighbor and a god, was one of the first people I connected to here. A shared obsession with Anime, similar work habits and general interests bonded us tighter than any difference in musical tastes could push us apart. I met Brandon early on too. We were the never sleeping night owls that dwelt in living room during the 1st quarter. With much of Jesus's help, we turned him into an Otaku which led to a serious fixation on the Japanese language. Damn Euclid is a lot longer than I remember. Maybe walking back wasn't such a great idea. Cathy and Amanda, how did I go wrong with them? Oh that's right, I boycotted their room and basically isolated myself from the closest friends I had at the time. What a mistake that was. I wish things could have gone back to the way they before. We spent all night gossiping like little school girls. Then Amanda would fall asleep with her eyes open, Cathy would sleep for days, and when they both woke up, they looked like shit (in a funny, non-offensive way). Carmen was always there with me. The four of us made a great group.

Elapsed Distance: 11.03 mi

Wrong turn: 2 mi circle
fuck my legs and i pissed on a church van. Thanks First Presbyterian Church.
Elapsed Distance: 13.25 mi

Talbert & Euclid to MacArthur & Bristol, Fountain Valley to Costa Mesa

I had two main pillars of support. I can't refer to them as legs because they worked in different methods. It would be like my right leg taking a step forward while my left foot would move arbitrarily. Both could take my mind of anything and would be there when I needed to flush my mind on to them. They listened without judging, they advised without self-interest. They cleared my head and they implanted happier thoughts but in different ways. Jerry would skate with me, shop with me, sit back and relax with me. Carmen would work with me, talk with me, and eat with me. While Jerry helped me to fly, Carmen helped me to walk with my feet on the ground. I owe these two so much and they mean so much to me, they have become truly invaluable to me. I love you guys!

Elapsed Distance: 16.24 mi

MacArthur & Bristol to Bristol & Jamboree, Costa Mesa

I wish I had a board with me. I wish I was boarding. I wish ICS was boarding with me right now even though I'm not really boarding right now. What an amazing group of people. A magician/Kathy Cho impersonator/fearless ninjabitch, a storm trooper who can solve a rubik's cube in under 30s, a fashionable terrorist penguin (besides terrorists, who wears bombs on their clothes and makes smoking devices), a loud professional photographer (cuz we hate the quiet ones), a liar (and a damn good one at that), a stripper who wants you to touch his body, the Pilipino God of Land Surf, a Mexican driver (it should say CHOLO on his license), a snow skateboarder, an idiot who falls on his knees a lot, a Jewish dancing Guitar hero, Dan Beard (a great man, enough said), the newly acquired guy who wrote the book on how to be great at everything in just 10 mins a day, and of course me. How could I spend my nights a better way than to tear up campus with the likes of these guys?

Elapsed Distance: 20.50 mi

Bristol & Jamboree to Jamboree & MacArthur, Costa Mesa

A lot of RAs hate us. But atleast our RA loves us. She's the only one that matters. Her opinion counts for something. Her requests mean something. And its all because we love her. Or at least I love her.

Elapsed Distance: 20.62

Jamboree & MacArthur to MacArthur & Bison, Costa Mesa to Irvine

I love my roommates. Not Kenny and Jason but my real roommates, the ones I lived with. They let me turn their crowded triple into a quad and I thank them so much. I will never forget Cherry saving my life with pad thai after I slept through 4 meals. I will never forget Jackie trying to take my life after my Soldier and Bear jokes. I will never forget my soldier and bear jokes. Keep boarding you two. Vince was like super glue, he held people together when they were falling apart. Everyone from the room went to Vince when they had a problem. It was that warmth factor you feel when around him. And even though he wasn't always "ready to shop," I could always joke around with him about it. Fongster, Phamster, and Yangster a.k.a. monster, hamster, and gangster. Liana was another of my generous life savers. The only female smasher and a blast to hang around with. Pham Pham...where to start. Talented and social, as expected of my daughter. Yang, Sherman. Broadened my horizons but also brought me back to my past. And he ran his dino with me. Then there are all those others who temporarily lived with use too. What an impact they all had on me.

Elapsed Distance: 22.09 mi

MacArthur & Bison to Pheonix Grill, Irvine

No one affected me more than you. No one treated me better than you. No one did I hurt as much as I hurt you. I'm sorry I couldn't do what I should have done. I'm sorry I hurt you so I wouldn't be hurt. I'm sorry I hurt you so that I wouldn't hurt her. Thanks for giving me your time, my space, and most of all your love. And thanks for still being my friend through it all.

Elapsed Distance: 23.34 mi

Phoenix Grille Ten Minute Break

As I sat on the steps in front of Phoenix Grille alone, I didn't feel alone. I could hear Jerry and Jesus next to me, I could see John and Allie in front of me, I could feel all of you around me...just being there...with me.

Pheonix Grille to Elrond, Irvine

Elapsed Distance: 23.50

End: Elrond